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Tales From Clown School #11: Well
Nov. 27th, 2023 03:47 pmWell well well. How the turn tables have...😂
I came into school today, prepared to essentially back the school into a position that I could quit and it would fully be on them, even if it wasn't technically against my contract. I reiterated that not telling me what was wrong when I could fix it and then punishing me was unethical, but that I also accepted I couldn't change anyone's mind. I would then like to meet with the department head to see what has been done for ESL, what the benchmarks for exiting are, etc. I FULLY expected to be stonewalled and set up as a scapegoat for failing students. I mean, I still fully expect to be a scapegoat, but here's the shock of the day for me.
They relented! Sort of! I am switching out my 7th-grade English for 6th-grade English, which is whatever. Still sucks because they are at the same time of the day, but I did teach 6th grade last year, and even though I have taught 7th grade before, it's been a while. I am absolutely not arguing further. I will look for some PD on grading because I'm not too arrogant to assume I don't have room to improve. And I need PD credits to recertify, so it won't be a waste of time.
I'm relieved that I don't have to go back home yet. Things at home are still hella rough. This way, I won't have a gap in paychecks or my resume to explain. And when I put the reason I left, I'm honest. It's due to philosophical differences.
It's still gonna be shitty. There is some garbage coming ahead. But having found my limit, I know I can pull the trigger at any time. Knowing that I don't have to stay makes it easier to be here for myself.
I really don't think the admin expected me to stand up for myself and to call them out on their BS, or to have receipts. I don't have any illusions that they will speak kindly of me when I go. The feeling will be entirely mutual.
Now. Please remind me to SAVE as much of my paychecks as I can over the next few months. I'm gonna need it.
I came into school today, prepared to essentially back the school into a position that I could quit and it would fully be on them, even if it wasn't technically against my contract. I reiterated that not telling me what was wrong when I could fix it and then punishing me was unethical, but that I also accepted I couldn't change anyone's mind. I would then like to meet with the department head to see what has been done for ESL, what the benchmarks for exiting are, etc. I FULLY expected to be stonewalled and set up as a scapegoat for failing students. I mean, I still fully expect to be a scapegoat, but here's the shock of the day for me.
They relented! Sort of! I am switching out my 7th-grade English for 6th-grade English, which is whatever. Still sucks because they are at the same time of the day, but I did teach 6th grade last year, and even though I have taught 7th grade before, it's been a while. I am absolutely not arguing further. I will look for some PD on grading because I'm not too arrogant to assume I don't have room to improve. And I need PD credits to recertify, so it won't be a waste of time.
I'm relieved that I don't have to go back home yet. Things at home are still hella rough. This way, I won't have a gap in paychecks or my resume to explain. And when I put the reason I left, I'm honest. It's due to philosophical differences.
It's still gonna be shitty. There is some garbage coming ahead. But having found my limit, I know I can pull the trigger at any time. Knowing that I don't have to stay makes it easier to be here for myself.
I really don't think the admin expected me to stand up for myself and to call them out on their BS, or to have receipts. I don't have any illusions that they will speak kindly of me when I go. The feeling will be entirely mutual.
Now. Please remind me to SAVE as much of my paychecks as I can over the next few months. I'm gonna need it.
