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This morning we got the call that my brother’s father-in-law Larry passes away. Larry was diagnosed with cancer back in September. In fact he got the diagnosis the day my niece, his only granddaughter, was born. I wasn’t super close to Larry, but our families are close. My mom is basically bff’s with my SIL’s mom, and we have holiday meals and birthdays together. They came to my going away party when I moved. Larry and Rayna (bro’s MIL) were world travelers, and in a rural, conservative place like Idaho, I cherished people who had broader experiences and who approached the world with a sense of wonder and adventure.

Larry was very kind when my own father passed away a few years ago. He was actually my SIL’s step father (her birth father is trash and not part of their lives). Bro/SIL’s wedding photo has my mom and dad and Larry and Rayna. He was just part of the family.

I’m so thankful he isn’t suffering any longer. He had, I think, bone cancer? It was particularly nasty and advanced rapidly. And now he’s not in pain.

This in addition to the news and the heinous actions of our “leaders” is absolutely demoralizing. I know I’m not alone im feeling lost, hopeless, tired, and scared, but fucking hell, I feel so lost, hopeless, tired, and scared.

Also? Cancer is such a fucking jerk!